sipping coffee, watching the clock

trying to study for my boards. my stomach is in shambles. i watch the clock, nervous. i am waiting for a phone call. mom and dad are at the doctors. finally after two weeks of sitting around and waiting, we are able to see an oncologist. two today: a surgical and a medical. i am praying that she is a candidate for surgery. can i say it anymore? i am SO baffled. this makes no sense. her cancer was not in her lymph nodes. she just finished chemo 9 months ago. this is not supposed to happen. i pray that she has enough of her liver that is not affected. i pray that the doctor can do something to remove the lesions. i pray that there is a new kind of chemo drug that can be used to heal her. i believe God can heal miraculously or through the use of medicine and i am praying today that He will simply heal, by whatever means he chooses. still nervous. my legs jump up and down. i really need to study, i did take a week off of practice questions. i cannot concentrate. waiting is the worst. i pray for good news. in the name of Jesus, i pray that the doctors would be confident and wise. i pray they would give reassurance. i pray they would not be pessimistic or negative. i pray for a solution, for a treatment. i pray that my mom would feel peace, comfort and hope. i pray God that you would provide her with hope today and that you would be glorified when good news is delivered. Jesus remove Satan from my mind, my family, my mother and her body. i beg, and i pray because you are God and because of your character that my mother would be healed. today, tomorrow, in a few months, even a year. i simply pray that your healing would take place in her body.